upon reading your letter, everything is what YOU want, what YOU think, the center is YOU.
but falling in love takes two people, you can not make someone falling in love with you.
He has stopped contacted you for 2 years, and he doesn’t want to be pen pal with you any longer, he has showing unwillingness to continue this relationship with you.
You are not submissive at all, you are living in yesterday. so sad.
you sounded young to me , you could keep praying, but you need to see the fact God has showed you.
He did not give you any promise, just being warm and kind, which only showed that he had a good personality, it’s not a special favor to you. just his personality.
Face the reality, my sister. you still have a long way to go. if you don’t wake up, nobody could help you.